Apa aku salah, Tuhan?
apa aku salah ya Tuhan, kalo aku mau slalu cari perhatian???
aku seperti rusa yang benar2 haus akan kasih sayang,
kemana aku cari perhatian???
kenapa orang lain kelihatannya gak pernah peduli sama aku??? apa aku yang harus peduli sama mereka???
Tuhan aku sedih…sangat hancur hatiku Tuhan…
Tuhan tau dari dulu aku haus dan terlantar…
tp Tuhan slalu memperhatikanku kan???
aku sedih Tuhan… aku butuh Engkau selalu ada di dekatku..
aku sakit Tuhan, aku merasa sakit… kapan aku sembuh Tuhan??
kenapa aku merasa sedih??? bukankah Kau selalu ada di dekatku???
Tuhan aku merasa sangat sakit… sakit sekali…aku sangat sesak Tuhan….
Tuhan dengar aku kan??
sama siapa aku mau cerita kalo gak sama Tuhan…
Tuhan aku sangat sakit dan perih rasanya Tuhan…
apa orang lain tau kesedihanku??? gak…gak …gak… hanya Engkau yang tau Tuhan…
aku sakit Tuhan, sangat sesak rasanya… seperti mau mati saja rasanya….
Sang Sanguin
Andai ku dapat memutar waktu
tak kuinginkan hidupku yang dulu
yang kelam dan sendu
penuh dengan mimpi buruk
tak kan ku lupa sepanjang hidupku
Apa salahku
jika ku slalu cari perhatian
apakah orang lain mampu mengerti aku?
apa salahku
jika aku slalu sendiri tanpa orang lain di sisiku
andaiku ku dapat berlari
kuigin berlari secepat mungkin
mengejar waktu yang tersisa
di ambang hidupku sekarang
adakah lagi yang dapat menolongku?
oh Yesus, Kau tahu
ku tak mampu berdiri lagi
dengan kakiku yang amat rapuh ini
hidupku sudah hancur dan tak berarti
mengapa Engkau mau memelukku?
orang lain berkata aku sangat hangat
tetapi sesungguhnya hatiku amat dingin Tuhan
orang lain berkata aku sangat asik
tetapi ku selalu dirundung rasa takut
takut kehilangan semua orang yang ada di dekatku
selama ini….
aku terlahir sebagai sang Sanguinis
apa aku salah Tuhan?
ketika ku mudah untuk melupakan suatu hal
ketika bibirku seringkali menyakiti hati temanku
ketika ku melupakan orang lain yang sudah mengenalku
mengapa aku terlahir sebagai Sanguinis, Tuhan?
jikalau orang2 di sekitarku sedikit demi sedikit meninggalkanku
apa aku perlu untuk merubah diriku sendiri, Tuhan
apa jawabMu Tuhan???
Sungguh tak pernah kutemukan
Pribadi Seperti Engkau ya Yesus
Yang begitu mengasihiku
dan tak akan pernah meninggalkanku
Selama-lamanya
Sanguinis menjadi anugerah yang teramat manis………………
Malaysia
MAlaysia ” a good boy be a bad boy”
I didnt know exactly but it’s so freaky… Indonesia n malaysia are neighborhood, Long time ago they had a good relation…but now, you can see.. what’s the problem between them… i dont know exactly, malaysia the first or indonesia… but the last report that I received, malaysia is the problem maker because they always steal many culture from indonesia, n indonesia hated them. indonesia never disturb them but why???? what’s the main problem that change Malaysia, be a bad country for indonesia???? I’m really wanna know bout it… it’s still mystery for me. from some informations that I had, Malaysia was lost their identity, they’re the modern city without history or memori
GAY !!!!!????
GAY !!!!!????
firstly, i dont believe that boy can have a relationship eith boy “i mean be a couple”… but i cannot avoid it because i live in society, i have a friend, and she has a friend too, a boy and he is a gay in that city… i cannot believe it but it’s truth…. in my mind, how did a boy can be a couple with a boy, and what’s the problem???? what’s the reason ??? did the girl in the world is less than them??? i dont know exactly but someday i asked my friend to know how it can be happen. He told me that that boy has trauma with a girl so its the one of reasons why they acted be a gay… but that’s still be a mystery, and i wanna know it more, i must get many informations again… iof u have some comment or informations bout it please leave a comment for me… i’ll wait u… before i close it, i wanna share to you, when i went to college firstly, i meet somefriends and they’ll be my friend about 4 month because we’ll always meet, i have one friend, he’s a boy… i thought that He is a truly boy, he’s clever, and he’s responsible… but some behaviors i dont like from him are He likes smoke, drink and said dirty words, but it doesnt really matter for me because it doesnt my problem… but this is the problem, he told to me and my friends that he is a GAY, i was really shock when i knew that he is Gay …… but i can accept him who is really are because i know that everbody can change everytime…. the question, GAY, is it kind of disease?????,,,,,,or jus kind of feel??? or jus a habit???
yesterday, was the final day of PPMB on college…huhu… at the last, i knew that the real concert of band wasnt good n cool, many people were drinking, my friend too… i didnt know that He liked to drinking i just knew that he is a smoker, but
he is a responsible boy…but He broke his life wiff that…. i like him as a friend but i dont like his habit like that… the guest star yesterday was J-rock… but i’wasn’t watch them bc i was bored there….
woahhhh
finally…i graduated from that high skool….i’m very happy.. so happy…
i’ll start my nu life at college….. thanks God….
bingung cari topik niy
long time no write… hew3
lagi sibuk ngurusin persiapan UAN tp kayaknya nileku gak terlalu memuaskan.. hix3.seharusnya aku serius ya?? tapi yah emank dasarnya malas belajar. tapi harus tetep semangat. ohya kemarin pengumuman (28 feb 2009) pmdk UNS, aku gak diterima. yah kalau mau jujur ya sedih juga. tapi ketika melihat janji2 Allah lagi, aku merasa bangkit lagi karena aku yakin pasti Allah gak akan mengingkari janjiNya sebab Allah bukan manusia yang bisa mengingkari janji. aku ditegur juga supaya jangan kuatir akn apapun juga sebab Allah ada di depanku yang menuntun jalanku…..
aku lagi hobi melukis niy tp alirannya abstrak(tahu lah yah)hew3…
ohya aku lagi cari info2 yang lagi ngetrend niy untuk bisa dibahas di Blogku iniy.
Aku ngerasa malu juga kalo isinya cuma curhat,curhat, n curhat…hew3…. setidaknya bisa menjadi manfaat bagi orang lain
Jesus is My great Father forever
hew3 I have registered UNS for medical major by academic registering…
hew3
I believe nothing imposible for God, to be honest I didnot believe I can pass this way better because many my friends have better score of their academic than mee, but everyday God always give warning for me because God has been planned my life so nothing that can make me fear.. of course many problems I cannt pass but God never leave me alone, He can give me more than I though before… and finnaly I’m sure that I will say that God is my everything and He is so wonderful father in my life…
God knows that I have many mistake … but He never see me dirty but He always make me convidence… and now, I was concious that only God can make me alive and walk my life….Jesus, You are my father forever.. Thanks Jesus…
uhuk3… theres many problems of my life.. but.. I believe every problem can give me many knowledges because I know that Jesus never sleeps.. He always cares about me,,, and I didnt want to waste my time just for thinking my problem.. hew3… I have many targets for my life.. and I believe Jesus has been planned it.. hew3… I have been registered UNS … I hope I could be accepted there.. I’m always pray for it.. but If I cannt accepted there, I’ll try and try,, because I believe the way never close but many doors that opened by Jesus,,, so I’m always keep hoping in Him… okey… keep moving forward with Jesus…. I love Himmmm…
Ja mata nee.. Jesus wa anata ga suki da…
hewwwwhewhew
long time no write, I really miss it
few times again I will graduate from senior high school, huh,,
I will continue my study in the high education but I’m really confused now because where university that I choose…
the first choice I wanna continue in Doctor major, or computer technic or in japan language,,,
whatever .. but in my mind I just believe that Jesus never lets me walk alone in my alone… I believe that Jesus has planned my future better according with Jesus wants and I believe that Jesus wants my life be better… and I always keep hoping in Him and always believe in Him,,,,
okey… ja mata nee…
